i HATE myself!

Sometime i really HATE myself for being who i am,
what i had done,
what i had created,
what i had cause the happy day to bad day!
what should i say or do when thing turn bad!
and the only thing i will do is remain silent!
i really WISH i can open my mouth and TALK!

i getting more & more emotional!
cause nothing has turn well in my journey!

my wish for 2010!!

i will get a DSLR.
i wish i will get a Mac Book Pro.
i wish i can control my emotional. (very impossible)
i wish i can don't envy or jealous ppl's happiness or success. (hahaha very impossible)
i wish i can earn more money due to more liability
i wish everyone is healthy
i wish i can always happy-go-lucky!
i wish i can always think simply.
i wish i can go back to my childhood life which the gal who always very talkative.
i wish i can talk rather than always silent in the big group.
i wish i can slim down to 50kg (hahahaha)
i wish i can be more confident in myself.
i wish i can talk & write in fluent English with no error!
i wish i dun be so lazy!
i wish i can find buddy to join whatever sport i wanna do.
i wish i got $ to do laser to my face.
i wish i got $ to do whitening to my yellowish teeth.
i wish my butt & leg can be smaller.

That so many wishes and how many can i make it!